Focus

I find that lately my are always heavy and burning, and my brain feels like a big lifeless rock sitting inside my skull. I guess fatigue is something to learn to deal with when you're looking to get into the industry. Familiar with the phrase, 'work now, sleep (eat, party) later?' That will have to be in my focus if I'll make anything out of a day like today. It's important that I master the ability to stay focused for long periods of time, even when I'm not feeling %100 .

Yes it hurts, but I like to think of it as working out for the mind; the first time you do it, the pain will make you wish you hadn't but if you press through steadily, you'll find that the burn of working out has begun to fade into a mellow, relaxing sensation, an almost pleasant feeling. On top of that, the next time that you work out, it will be easier and the burn will attack you less than it did before. I've been trying this out for that last little while, working out my mind in hopes of one day completely transforming my rock into a lively, working machine, instead of the liability that it sometimes is.

I've noticed that I always have a hard time remembering certain details from the past when asked for them on the spot, and as an actor/writer, I know that I'd better have every experience ready to be pulled on at my discretion. It's for this reason that I hope this 'brain workout theory' works for me. Well I'm actually starting to see some improvement; tough I feel tired and sometimes sluggish to an extent, I find that I can control my brain to move at either 150mp/h or slow it down to 5mp/h which I was really impressed by. I Also find that it's easier for me to articulate my ideas and opinions, and instead of saying 'uhh... umm,' all of the time, I can now start to sound like I know exactly what I'm saying and where I'm going with my points. the brain workout is something that's taking me form being a talented artist who will likely remain idle and jobless for extended periods of time, to being a talented person who is persistent and polished enough to find a breakthrough into the industry.

Temptations like video games and sleeping in have no power when your mind is sober and you've separated yourself from the addiction (yes, laziness is a drug). Start pushing yourlef to focus, and you will find that your desires change when you are able to think and feel clearly, and it's amazing when you are able to think and feel clearly, and take action. Wow, I just went from feeling like a fatigued hospital case, to a clear thinking nerd, just by blogging, what a pleasant surprise.

- The Artist