Pointless Doubt

At times, I feel as though I'm less than I should be, I've been under the impression that I'm not quite good enough and as a result, I've been ashamed of myself. It wasn't until a couple days ago that I finally broke this, but I have no problem sharing. The root of this insecurity came from thinking that I'm not enough of a man and that I need to be so much stronger. I could feel myself relying so much upon the support of others even in simple tasks, and my ability to even formulate my own clear ideas had been jammed. My mind was trapped and clouded and disoriented to the point where I felt completely useless. It was like I was even failing at the things that I was supposed to be good at. 

What I have learned though, is that I don't have to be enough right now, it's my job to live my life and pick up as I go along. There's no need to rush into manhood, it will hit me when the time is right. So now that I've sorted this out, I can finally return to my regular, alert, mentally-sharpened self; I can finally be a leader because i no longer have to lie to myself to feel alright. It's funny, it feels bad to realize your flaws and it's so easy to let them affect you, but truly overcoming them gives a feeling that is so much sweeter.